The time is come, that I open up my laptop and begin clicking and clacking my fingertips on my keyboard. It has been a while since an update. Actually 8 months since the last update. I have decided to come back home to writing. I love writing and showing progress on the Snake Shaker. I feel about writing is it has to be the right time. I can't force it. It felt like a voice that I had that I could summarize into few words and relay a huge message upon emotion. Something that I have to dig deep for.
A lot is changed since my last post. I had started on the XS650 project. However, as the tides of life that constantly change, I realized the project just wasn’t for me. It just wasn’t the right place and the right time. It totally saddens me to even say that because I don’t like admitting that I’m giving up on a project, but I had some other influences on my life happened.
Number one, I lost my job a week after I bought the XS! (I have since gained an incredible employment opportunity that makes me happy like nothing else) At the time though, without the funds I could not continue the project. We did get the engine fixed and repaired the broken valve with used parts Cal had laying around, but I started to feel my heart falling out of it the XS project. It was so hard for me to admit that because the building the Snake Shaker was an incredible journey and I wanted to experience that again. I remember being so excited and being super pumped to get into the garage and actually start working on it. I also had this incredible guilt that it sat in my basement. Every time I would go downstairs to do laundry, I felt like I had eyes watching me. Almost like I was leaving an animal at an animal shelter or abandoning a child at a bus stop. I know that sounds incredibly dramatic, but it was just a hard really hard decision to come to. I felt really frustrated about it. However, without the money it was going to be an incredibly hard project to try and finish. I still had all these ideas I wanted to fulfill with this project, creative juices were flowing hard with this bike. Selling the project was a really hard decision to make.
As time went on, most of you know that I’ve become engaged to Cal. The one thing that I truly wanted, (and yes this is a girl part of my brain) was I wanted to feel good for our wedding day. I decided to sell the XS650 for the dress. (That was a tough decision.) I can assume that most men have stopped reading by now, which yeah, it’s sucks. Or maybe I could tell myself that that’s a sexist view, and those who really truly know me, could understand that was an incredibly hard decision. But I knew in my gut was telling me it was the right decision. I am a BIG believer that things are recycled in this world for a reason. I also self-reflected and knew that this was the thing that I wanted the most. The dress that I picked out for my wedding is incredible and gorgeous.